Our little Miracle

Our little Miracle
"And the Child grew and became strong in spirit, filled with wisdom; and the grace of God was upon him." ~Luke 2:40

Friday, December 9, 2011

A turn for the better!

Before I went to bed last night, and feeling so helpless and thinking a lot about the what ifs... I called to check in on Austin.  He was still at 43%, but hanging in there.  Okay, I can deal with that... at least he is standing still and not getting "worse".  I go to bed, pray and fall asleep.  I awake to pump at 1:30.  When I am finished, I called down and talk to his nurse.  She said "oh, I'm so glad you called... I was hoping you'd call.." (my heart kind of began to nervously race)..."Austin's oxygen is at 28%!!!!!!   WOW!!!!  I couldn't believe it.  I said "are you serious???  really?"  and began to cry.  I was really feeling terrible yesterday.  I had a lot of negative feelings.  I did not like how I felt yesterday... but I really felt as though he was just so over it all.  It was breaking my heart to see him not making any progress... but he did!  AND BIG PROGRESS!!!  43% to 28% in just a few hours!  AWESOME!  I called again at 5:30a and he was still at 28%, but his tube was coming loose and while they were re taping it, he did have to be bagged b/c his HR dropped and wasn't rising quick enough... but with in a half hour she was able to get him back down to 30%. 

When I walked in this morning, it was very noisy and alot of alarms going off.  Just busy.  Austin does not like the noise and does not like commotion.  He had a couple desats, but was always bringing himself back up.  She had him set at 33%.  I am okay with that!  He's moving in the right direction.  During rounds the doctors all agreed his progress is a good sign that the steroids are doing their job.  He gained over 40 grams and is now 1210g = 2lbs 10oz.   I held him for KC today.  We all watched as he was being moved over to me, water flush down his vent tube from condensation of his vent tube.  He dropped O2's and HR and kind of hung out low... so he was bagged again.  This time I was so calm....  I felt fine... I knew he was okay.  I love that little boy!   I made up some songs for just him and I and was singing them to him.  I brought a book, which he loves story time, and today's book was a silly story called Aliens Love Panta Claus...picked out by his older brother, of course!   He opens his eyes and loves to listen to me. 

I have a baby shower tomorrow back home, (about an hour and a half away) and until today, I was so nervous about leaving.  Thinking of 'what if' this or that...  but he helped me so much by making those small, but major, progressions!


Thank you all for your continued prayers!  They are working miracles for Austin!  I wish I could hug each and every one of you at this very moment I am so so so HAPPY he's making such a turn around! 


  1. I am so happy to see Austin thriving in the NICU and I wanted to let you know that he has been in our families prayers! We had our son at 25 weeks last Nov 2011. We also choose to have our son baptised in the NICU by our catholic priest and it was the best decision we ever made.

    We wish you and your family all the best this holiday season! Hang in there!

  2. I've been wondering how you and your little Austin are doing. I'm from your Feb 2012 Birth Board, and I just saw a post today about your blog. You and your brave little warrior are such inspiration! Keep up the good work Mama! Hugs to you, and I'm sending lots of thoughts and prayers to you and your beautiful boy.

  3. You and your family are in my prayers. I hope everything keeps going well for you!

    FEB 2012 BBC momma

  4. Keep going Austin. All of us from the FEB BB are pulling for you little man! Keep fighting! You are an amazing family!


  5. Thanks you for sharing your story! I haven't commented yet, but have been following it since you posted your son's birth on baby center.

  6. Hey Mama, this is FirstBabyPhillips from your February 2012 Birth Board. My husband and I have been continuing to pray for Austin. We check this blog for updates often.

    We were so glad to see this latest post. We are thrilled to hear that Austin is making such amazing progress! I hope he is able to come of his ventilator for good soon. We have been praying that the steroids do their job. Austin is such a cutie and sounds like such a strong little man!

    My favorite "news" is always when we see that you've gotten to do KC with him... if I were in your shoes, I know how much I would be absolutely living for those moments. I love your idea of talking to him about the holiday season and reading him Christmas stories. It's so amazing how he loves to listen to you already!

    I cannot even begin imagine what you and your family are going through during this time. You are doing such an amazing job staying strong and remaining upbeat through this emotional rollercoaster. Your three boys are so lucky to have you as a mother/wife. Please extend our thoughts, encouragement, and prayers to your husband as well!

    P.S. - Your older son sounds like he is going to be an incredible big brother... what a sweetheart!