Rough weekend... and a bounce back!

Austin is 7 lbs 4 oz.  He is now 19 inches long.  He will be 40 weeks gestation tomorrow.  Yes, my due date is tomorrow.  I feel okay about it.  I did schedule a spa day tomorrow... I have been having tension headaches and I think tomorrow might be a  little bitter sweet.  I see this sweet boy smiling back at me and it makes my heart melt!  Keeps me positive and keeps me "ticking".....

BIG SMILES!!!

Austin had four episodes in a 24 hour period this weekend.  Very weird... he hasn't had these A's and B's in so very long.  It really difficult when you ask a doctor WHY and the answer is "WE DON'T KNOW" and when you ask WHAT IS THE PLAN and they answer is "We're trying to figure that out too".    I love Austin's doctors though.  They have established a good plan of action for him for the time being.  He is back on the high flow cannula 24/7.  Hoping and praying that he takes to this well.  He needs to get off of the Cpap.... he is getting too old for that dependency.  They also checked his hematicrit and retic and the numbers were trending in the right direction, no need for a trasfusion. (good news)

Austin's baseline for his respiratory rate and his work to breath is higher than most babies.  He has some crummy lungs and was so extremely premature that they really need some time to heal.  AND this type of healing doesn't happen over night.  Patience is hard once you're at the 3 month mark.  But he is doing well.  He is such a fighter!  I can't wait to share with him stories of his strength.  I am so proud of him!  My older son Drew is already protective of his baby brother.  The brother he has yet to meet, and its so heart warming to me!  I say stuff like "look at his fat cheeks"  and Drew immediately says "don't make fun of my brother!!!!".   :o)

My husband and I are really becoming anxious for Austin to get well and come home, but are trying to stay in the now as we always have.  He needs more time!  and that's just fine! 

Many thanks for your thoughts and prayers.  Without all of you and your prayers, I'm just not sure what I would do!  THANK YOU from every depth of my heart!!!!!!

3 months old